My first reaction was shock - probably because she's so young. But my next reaction was "What the crap, God?!" Now I know that cancer isn't necessarily the threat that it was 20 years ago. The success rate from treatment is much, much higher. I have full confidence that my friend will make it through all of this just fine. But still. This is a young lady with a great husband and great kids who's more than willing to go to the ends of the earth to serve God. So seriously, what the crap? My anger and confusion over the whole thing has just built and built. But last night I was thinking about it and I had to ask myself some questions.
This sort of thing isn't unique to my friend. Young people get cancer every day. What does it say about us as humans (and as Christians) that we only start questioning God's wisdom when the situation directly affects us? People have been getting sick from cancer all year long and I haven't cared one iota. But now that it's my friend, all of the sudden I'm outraged. Is it because I'm emotionally closer to the situation? Is it because she tries to be a true disciple of Jesus and so I think she deserves better? If that's true, what does it say about my capacity for compassion, that I only care about Christians who are close to me?
I don't know what point I'm trying to make through all of this. I just know these things:
- It doesn't seem right.
- God is good.
I believe both of those statements, and just like everyone else, I'll probably spend the rest of my life trying to make sense of using those statements together.